I mentioned the photo dilemma to my resident computer expert and it is syncing issue that I don’t have the brain space to care about. that sounds silly but it’s true. I feel silly and ambivalent about technology. I can watch YouTube for ages and then I can barely spare a minute to look at the screen. recently, my nine […]
memory / writing
how you tell it
the birds are out today. so are the squirrels. I had a glorious few minutes of watching them drink from puddles on the deck. if only my computer and this blog could work in unison I would have photos to show. however, that is just not the case and I haven’t the mind to try and figure it out nor […]
writing
going slower than slow in a non aesthetic way
the truth that is hard for me to accept some days is that i am slow. things take time for me. i like complicated complex things (including myself) and it just takes more time than i would like to admit to do these things. yes, i can do things fast and hard and even do them well and feel good. […]
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living into celebration
the holiday season has snuck upon us. well, me. I mean, I knew it was coming but I just didn’t realize it was coming so soon this year. my family was never one for traditional holidays in a traditional way but big holidays remind me of the gatherings we would have my aunts. I don’t know if I considered them […]
self compassion / selflove
do what works for you
find yourself. your true self. in the moment. live into it. when that feels too large or too tight. go outside. lean into the moment. smell the air. do something different. or do more of the same (as in the before times). every action (or inaction) has a natural consequences…good and/or bad…depending on how you look at it. there will […]
self compassion / selflove / writing
more on peaches
I ate all the fancy vanilla peaches. not all at once. although, they were so good I could see that happening. I ate them slowly over a week, it was big but small jar. I loved them but the place I got them is 30 minutes to hour away. not awfully far but way too far for one jar of […]
Personal - null / self compassion / selflove / writing
pleasure principle
sometimes, I catch myself being harsh and punishing to myself for the most mundane of things. you know, being human… a wonderfully imperfect and slow mess…glorious things, really. I am wondering how I can drop that story of the need to fix and punish and instead embrace the mess and nurture what matters–me, the human. I mean, this is the […]
creative practice / self compassion
frida kahlo on ambition and painting
“I really don’t know if my paintings are surrealist,” she says, ” but I know that they are the frankest expression of myself, without ever taking into consideration anyone’s judgment or prejudice, I have painted very little and without the slightest desire for glory or ambition, but before all else, out of the conviction that I enjoy it, and then […]
creative practice / selflove / writing
painting in my mind
there is a part of painting that always feels out of reach I think it’s my mind that sometimes gets attached to how I feel something should look. there is nothing wrong with that aiming for a particular look or feel in a painting is okay but when it comes at the expense of true expression it can feel limited. […]